There is something wrong with this generation, consisting of those in their early twenties to those in their early thirties. Do people not notice that the only ways to have fun involve booze or other states of mind where our brains are completely screwed up and reality has been altered? No, I do not enjoy sitting at home on a Friday night, but if it means that I don’t have to drink for two nights in a row, then I will.
Don’t think that I don’t enjoy drinking just like the rest of my peers, I enjoy being sloshed just as much as the next person. Is that because society has made it so I think I am enjoying it because everyone else does? Or do I enjoy it for the sake of enjoyment? I’ll never know.
It’s easy to lose yourself in the drinking and numb the pain or really try to fit in with you peers. Do I do it to go out and have a good time because that’s what everyone else is doing? I’m not sure. I do find myself becoming slightly more and more irritated every time I find myself having too much alone time? Absolutely. It gets really lonely seeing all the instagram photos and Facebook posts of my contemporaries hanging out without me. However, they are drinking in almost every occurrence.
There is a dilemma with my generation. We’ve lost sight of our creative outlets and have become so accustomed to watching trashy tv, doing stupid stuff, and of course using mind-numbing agents like alcohol and marijuana. How did we lose sight of ourselves and lose sight of how to entertain ourselves when we are alone? I am pretty sure that I am not the only one in my generation who feels completely dumbfounded when I have a weekend night to myself.
My thought is this. I need to find more creative outlets for myself just so I don’t completely lose my marbles and completely lose myself. I remember when I would spend ages doodling in my college and high school notebooks for no purpose other than to keep my mind focused and because I simply enjoyed to doodle. I don’t do that anymore. I envy children who get to learn all kinds of new things and don’t have things like alcohol and going out clubbing in their way. They simply get to try new things with no judgement and no resentment towards others. They don’t have to worry if they’re the only one who’s sitting at home alone on a friday night. Alas, I can’t go back to being a kid- as much as I hope and dream for it. So, I guess I am going to have to start making the most of what I do have- my adulthood, my sanity and my freedom.